Hi Mom,
Its been eleven days of living life with out you, with out hearing your voice or seeing your beautiful face. Its been eleven days that I wish I can wake up from a nightmare. Life moves on when I want it to pause so I can understand what has happened and be ok with it. Mom, I will never be ok with both you and dad not being here. You thought I was a mess when dad passed. I'm just as numb and lost with you gone. I don't understand the timing. I can say I have an abundance of questions for God to answer.
Tomorrow you and dad get to calibrate your 48th wedding anniversary together in heaven. I get to look at your wedding photos and remember two beautiful souls.
The kids are doing alright, worried about their mom and helping out where and when they can. The love and miss you too.
William, your sweet boy, he's coping, asking questions, hugs the build a bear you made him. he feels close to you that way.
He is trying so hard to be a big boy and make sure grandma is alright. Tonight he pulled out a pocket mirror just to show me how beautiful I am.
Mom, Leon has been my rock, he has held me up when needed, tries to help when I cry at the drop of a hat.
We have talked about the day you went home to be with dad. We believe heaven had a plan for Leon to come home that morning. He was meant to drive me to your house when we got the news. He had to hold me up then and still is. Both you and dad have nothing to worry about right now. Leon's got me.
Please understand that this will be my writing place to you.
I wish you would come to me so I could see you and talk with you for a while, however, for now this will have to do.
Please hug dad for me and tell him I love him.
Mom, the last words I said to you were I love you, You said I love you too, I will hold that close to my heart until we are all reunited in the heavenly kingdom.
Watch over us all.
I love you,
Your baby girl
